5/22/08

I Found the Way

I wrote this poem about 10 years ago. I cannot believe it has been that long! I was fifteen years old. To this day I still remember the night I wrote it. My mom and I were home, and it was shortly after my parents divorced. I sat down at the kitchen table and just started writing. When I was finished, I took it into my mom to show her. She was on the phone, and started crying. Oops! :) I later published it in the district poetry book my senior year of high school.

Throughout my adult years there have been times when I longed to be this faithful. This poem has truly been a compass for me, helping me always know where I wanted to be. When I wasn't there, I was able to recognize it. With everything I have been through this year, I truly feel like my faith has been strengthened. I feel like I am this person now, moreso than ever before.

I Found the Way

There I was
In my home above
With my loving Father
As pure as a dove

He was sending me off
Into the world to learn
He said, "You are my daughter,
May you know which way to turn"

I was born
On a sunny afternoon
I came into this world
A little too soon

In the fall
A September month
I came to a family
Ready to love

They told me as I grew
There are things I'd never do
I'd never walk or ride a bike,
I'd never tie my shoe

As I got older
I proved them wrong,
Because I grew
So spiritually strong

I learned of my Father up above
And His endless love,
I learned He held me in His arms
And they protect me from all harm

He could move a mountain
And even calm the sea,
He created the world I live in
He created You and Me

In this life
We all have things to do,
He'll be right here coaching
Helping us get through

I may not be able to ride a bike
Or maybe even run,
But there is a special path I hike
That leads me to the One

With my Father here to guide me
And faith that I'll return,
He has made the promise
I am never on my own

With my faith, will I come to Him someday?
Being His daughter can I say,
My Father, I love you,
I found my way!"
Melody Boast 1998

5/15/08

He Sends Me Angels


I can't believe it has been one year since I married Ben, and nine months since he walked out. Though, this year has not been anything like I expected, I feel so blessed and grateful to be where I am today.

I remember being in the temple one year ago, getting ready to be sealed, and having the overwelming feeling that my family (on both sides of the veil) was watching over me, and very aware of what was happening in my life. That experience has been one of those things that has gotten me through this year. I know I have never been alone, and I know I never will be.

This year has been hard, I will not deny that. Carrying a baby for nine months and taking care of two energetic girls and myself on my own(with the help of the Lord) has not been easy. Making the decision to place my little boy for adoption, and following through with that decision is the hardest thing I have ever (and hopefully will ever) face. But, I have been blessed with good people in my life, a new start in a new town, a friendly and loving ward, good friends, family and neighbors. I wouldn't change it for the world.

I have had many people say to me "I don't know how you do it, Melody. I take care of my kids by myself for one night and I go crazy, you do it every day." The truth is, I have never really felt alone. I know it is not me getting myself through each day but it's the faith and knowledge that I will be carried through. There are some nights when I lay my head to my pillow and think to myself, "how did I get through today?" There is only one answer to that question.

He sends me angels.

5/11/08

Mother's Day

This day has never meant so much to me before. The past few months have been an eye opening experience regarding the sacred splendor of motherhood. I enjoy my girls. They are so sweet. I cannot help but think of Tyler. I can't help but picture him at church with his family today, and the pride that fill Jen's heart to know she IS a mother now. I gave that to her. Though I miss him, it is a bittersweet day.
I can't help but think of the precious moments I had with him on that last night in the hospital. It was 3 am, and all there was, was him and I. The rest of the world was locked outside. For a moment, time stopped. He was mine, and only mine. But his father in heaven had a plan for him. Father in heaven had a plan for me. Though I do not know what lies ahead, I do know that in those moments, I got a glimpse of eternity. I will forever be grateful for those moments.

I will forever be grateful for Tyler, and for his parents who are now raising him with such powerful love and devotion.

I will forever be grateful for my beautiful daughters. And for the gift of a mother's love which I possess. I am glad to share that gift with Jen, and she is now enjoying it on this beautiful day.

5/9/08

For Samatha and Laci

Daughter


If only you could understand
The things you could not see
Like a window to my soul
View the deeper part of me
I may not be perfect
I struggle inside
There are so many things
That break down my pride
I wish I was kinder
A gentler friend
A shoulder to cry on
With a heart to lend
I want to show you
How much I care
It is my hope
You know I am always there
I want to be the mother
I always dreamed I would be
Helping you reach for your goals
So many things I want you to believe
Believe in yourself
And who you are
Believe that you are heaven’s
Bright shining star
Believe that with God’s
Power on high
You can spread your wings
And conquer the sky
You are a Daughter
With nature divine
Each day remember
You are not mine
You belong to a Father
With a love so true
He wants in every way
What is best for you
He will guide you and love you
And take you by the hand
He will lead you onward
If you put your trust in Him
My daughter, I love you
I want you to know
Though I may not show it
You have a glow
You are a special spirit
Sent from Father above
I thank him every day
For your precious love
Hold on to the person
Deep down in your soul
Let’s walk the road together
To our Heavenly home.

May 9, 2008



5/5/08

Sam's Un-Birthday (I need your help)!


On the 13th of May I have planned on having Samantha's un-birthday party at school. I will be making a poster board of pictures of her, and she gets to bring in show and tell, and treats. One of the things I would like to do is make a list of special things about her. That is where you come in. Those of you that know her (or of her works too), if you could help me come up with little things about Samantha that make her special. Then I can take them down and share them with her class. I think it would be really good for her, to help with her confidence, and really good for her class mates to learn a little bit about her.

Just an idea! hopefully it will work! Thanks you guys! Happy Cinco De Mayo. :D